*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post... This week's thoughts are not my own but are written by someone who would like to remain anonymous. Could I make a request that if you know the writer that you don't talk to them publicly about this on Facebook or Twitter. Please feel free to leave supportive and lovely comments though :-)
I just read a book called 'How to Break Your Own Heart'.
The storyline closely follows my life at the moment so I felt I had to read it.
However, I'm sitting here now, having had an argument with hubby so he's sitting downstairs and I'm up here typing. And I'm realising that he's probably waiting for me to leave since our last discussion re: children. Can you imagine going through your life waiting for the day the other person says 'that's it, I'm off '. How hard would that be?
So it's made me realise that I'm going to break HIS heart - and that's worse than anything I'm going to feel. In all this, I've never let myself consider how he's going to feel. Which makes it even harder for me to leave and which only prolongs it for him.
The books and movies that I've read and seen have only ever covered how the woman or man who wants kids is feeling but no-one ever covers how the other person feels. And usually they're the ones who have not changed thier mind and has always maintained they never wanting children but they are the ones left alone wondering what the hell happened and where has this person they fell in love with gone.
I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)